Ducks and Lovers

"Lily, the ducks are back!" Ashley called down the stairs.
"What?!"
"Yeah, sitting on the front lawn."
I raced up the stairs two at a time, and ran to the front door only to only open it very softly.
"Hi guys..." I whispered, "how are you? Are you hungry?" I turned to Ashley, "it is 10pm, is it too late to feed them?"
"Nahh.. just see."
"Okay!"

I brought the corn out and sat on my front steps. I threw a handful and immediately Daisy was up and devouring each kernel. "Good girl!" As I watched them eat I realized how relieved I was to see them on my lawn again.

Last night Brad was over and said, "I just want kids! I want to play with them and take them to the park, but then I remember," and his voice drops off, "I need to get married first..."
I laughed - I have so often felt the same way. Though the task of raising children is a difficult one, it seems nothing compared to the overwhelmingly staggering task of finding someone to marry. It isn't this difficult for everyone. It could be that I am too picky, but seriously, I have not found anyone good enough. My last boyfriend was completely shallow and too interested in fictitious women, but I naively didn't realize it until my heart was invested. I usually am interested in the bad boys, but the good ones are so boring! I know, generalization. But I want to give all of myself to someone. There is no other relationship in which one give all....

"Good night Daisy." I stood up, "Good night Donald."